My First Valentine’s!

Happy Valentine’s Day! Or Galentine’s, or Palentine’s, whatever you like to call it. I’m all inclusive.

This Valentine’s Day was my first Valentine’s Day not because I was born less than a year ago like “Baby’s First Birthday” but because this is the first year I’ve been in a proper exclusive relationship. I’m really happy and content and since it’s the perfect day to celebrate it, I thought I’d share and articulate my feelings and emotions about them and my experience of being in a relationship.

 

I met you in a coffee shop. Cheesy and old school, I know, but I guess life just happens. I wasn’t looking for a commitment, and to be honest, I wouldn’t normally go for someone like you but I gave it a go.

Fortunately for me, you turned out to be quirky and vibrant, but sweet, soft and warm on the inside. And I love the way you smell. I love your rosy complexion and creamy white quiff and your curves and how cute you look as you just sit quietly. I can sit with you all night, wondering about the possibilities of the Universe, our future lives, things to put on our bucket lists, how weird it is we pretend to be asleep to fall asleep. You know, the usual.

But I know our relationship has an expiration date. My parents keep telling me you’re not good for me but you make me feel better when I’m stressed and depressed. I get excited knowing I’ll get to see you at the end of the hard days. We’re unconventional and untraditional but come on, it’s 2019! We can be free with our feelings. Who cares what people think? People can date whoever they want!

You make me feel really good. Especially inside me. 

You were really yummy, my little Red Velvet Muffin. ❤️

 

-Shay

“I Love You.”

The are three types of people in this world:

  1. The people who say I love you without hesitation.
  2. The people who barely say I love you.
  3. And the people who flee as soon as they even hear the word “I…”

And maybe those who fit into all three.

Sometimes I fit into each one, depending on my mood of the day and the person I’m saying it too.

 

I don’t say “I love you” very frequently. In fact, it’s very rare you’ll ever hear me say it in real life. However, when I do say it, I mean it. I don’t think I’ve ever said the phrase to anyone I know, personally, without meaning it. There are still some friends, that I love to the moon and back, I haven’t said it to. I know that sounds bad but I usually show it in different ways or will slip it into conversations or texts like “Hahah, I love you.” XD I just find it awkward, especially the quiet or blushing after. I’d even go to the extent of saying along the lines of “I really don’t hate you at all” Instead of saying the words “I love you”. To be honest, that’s probably a problem.

 

I’ve heard so many people in my life throw the phrase “I love you” around as if it’s just saying “Hi” and I’m not saying that it’s a bad thing because it shows you’re a cheerful, loveable person, but after a while, it loses it’s meaning. And I don’t want the phrase to lose it’s meaning because when I say it, it must mean I really do love you.

But what does “I love you” really mean?

In my opinion, I think it’s a strong phrase to say and probably a milestone. It’s not just a phrase to tell someone so that they know you like them more than you did before but I think it means a lot more, for example:

  • Your commitment to them
  • The support you have for them
  • The respect you give them
  • Protection and comfort
  • The fact you probably think about them a lot
  • And that you appreciate them inside and out

 

Do you think “I love you” is really a meaningful phrase?

 

-Shay